i don't know. i just feel so so alone.. not just that no one's around. i could be in the middle of a room full of people right now and feel no different. i think i'm expendible, i'm friend windowdressing. it sounds stupid when i try to explain it, but that's really how i feel. nice to have around but to most ppl i don't really matter. o well
no need to beg or borrow
got all my friends out on loan
trade an ocean of laughter for a pool of sorrow...
--dust for life
such a useless stupid day. i think the 1 good thing was dinner