April 18th, 2001


digga me

hey, i forgot i had tons of stuff to read tonite. haha. o well, at least i got to see die hard 2 ("die harder") tonite, that was amusing. that icicle scene was straight outta friday the 13th part bajillion.
so yeah, blahdeeblah reading. i have to finish "love medicine" by friday, supposedly, so that's about 100 pgs tomorow and thurs i get to read. plus 'house in earnest' due next tuesday, which is 260ish pages, not to mention everyone says it sucks rocks. so that should be fun. plus more of hte iliad for myth. crazy iliad. that book is at least amusingly nutty. it's rather endearing, really, 'homer' just babbles about the most useless things for 20 pages at a time, then has hardcore violence for awhile (my favorite was the guy who died by punctured bladder via sword thru the ass), then gives some guy's family tree and the complete history of all his armor.
in my calc lab today, the TA had us look at a question in the book he coudlnt answer. none of us could figure it out either. i don't know who makes up these questions, but they are always imensely harder than they have any reason to be. but at least he showed me hte jackassed mistake i made on the test, whcih explained the 1 problem i coudln't solve despite trying to do it like 4 times. somehow i did the same stupid thing each time, too. note to self: negative times negative is positive. i love how i can do calc fine, but i still haven't got the hang of arithmetic. anyway, despite that smooth move, i got a 16 of 17 pts, so yay for dan. i really wish i'd taken more AP tests last year, i could've gotten credit for a bunch of things, methinks, calc I included. (of course, then i wouldn't've taken freshman comp, my favorite class so far here). all i took was us history, got a 3 (of 5, for you not familiar w/ APs), which apparently is worth nuthin (which is odd, cuz according to emily, a 3 on the french AP got her from 503 to 504, but whatever).
i wonder if there's a way to submit to the CDDB, cuz there's lots of cds that aren't listed and should be. KITH, for example.
anyway, john is emailing cordially now, so i guess the "go away" from the other nite is retracted. and speakin of which, it seems gret wants to talk sometime, about 'stuff'. honestly, i'm not sure how i feel abotu that. i dunno, it's not like she stopped being sweet or a good freind or funny, or anything like that, but we somehow lost the ability to converse for more than 10 mins at a time without huge silences (and often, without us getting all pissy too. that was fun).
i still havent mastered the art of longdistance friendships. either we dont talk as much as i'd like, or i'm somehow roped into talking 11 times a day and i go insane. there has to be some sort of happy median. hmm..
i had another point i wanted to make, but i've forgotten it now. damn. hey, does anyone have a good suggestion for what i could do with the bouquet of dried roses i currenlty have taped upside down on my wall? i would just find a vase somewhere to stick them in, but theyre all dried and dark red and goth-looking. and they jus tlook silly, hanging upside down on my wall. and i don't wanna throw them out, cuz lauri gave them to me for my bday (speaking of whcih, george the caterpiller balloon is doing quite nicely), and hell, it's a bouquet of roses.
why is it, on lists of music about nam, i have never once seen "rooster" by alice in chains listed? or, for that matter, any of the 9999 songs metallica did about it. hmm.
i can't wait for next year, when i have no classes before 11. that is gonna rule. goodnite.
  • Current Music
    Alice In Chains - Junkhead (demo)


i forgot to mention, my computer hates me today. i wanted to print those 2 poems from teh other day on the back of a copy of the peom i'd written for prose, cuz we supposedly were doing something in class today. so before i realized i already had a printout of hte 1st poem and just needed the new ones, i open that up to print it. i then realize, so i go to print the other 2. now, for simplicitys sake, i paste them into the doc i already have open and just delete that part, figuring i'll fix it after i print. so i get them all set pretty, and hit print. and nothing happens. i look in the print properties, it seems ok, but it's not doing anything. the printer didnt even turn on. i turn it on, nothing. try printing again, nothing. cancel the print job, and it won't go away (buncha hrs later, it's still there). ok, fuckit, so i just have hte 1 poem. anyway, in the meantime, word decides to save the file for me, cuz it's smart. i try to revert to the old version but it no longer has that. hmm. so when i'm bored, i'll retype that poem from hardcopy. but just grr to the silly thing.
and since i'm posting, i will say this.. girls rule. they just really do. cept when they suck, which can be often, but for the most part, girls rule.
and now, goodnite for real.
  • Current Music
    Alice In Chains - God Smack

happy happy fun town

wow. this morning SUCKED MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF SUCK. my alarm went off today at 7:40am for calc, i lurched from bed, hit the snooze, thougt better of it and set the alarm for an hour later - for crit analysis whcih i can't miss cuz i'm already past the absense limit thanks mostly to the week after jackson, and she's decided to be a hardass and count them all - and fell back into bed. 10 mins later, the snooze goes off. apparently setting the alarm for an HOUR LATER didn't have anythign to do with that. sure. so i turn it off and on again manually, and figure i'm good. fall back into bed. and don't get any rest for the hour cuz i felt like crap. my eyes hurt when they were open, htey hurt in a different way when they were closed (hmm), my stomach hurt, and i was exhausted. o well. so an hour later the alarm goes off again and i get up, still feeling broken. go to crit analysis, uselss as always, but by the end of class i'm feeling better so thats cool.
o, i forgot to mention, another reason this morning was evil: SNOW. IT SNOWED. I WANT NO MORE SNOW, DAMMIT! NONE! WINTER IS OVER!
but like i siad, i feel better now, and in a min i'm goin to lunch with julie. so the day is good now. yay. and peace reigned over the earth.
kate and pfaff both IMed me this morning at almost hte same time. that was odd, seeing as i havne't talked to either of them in awhile.. i'll occasionaly say hi but theyre always away (kinda like me, but fnarr). so that was neat.
HAHAHAHAH ok this rules. i have a new motto for life:
Katebabes1 (10:55:32 AM): your matzo god was sure watching out for you!!!
gotta love my matzo god, eh? yay..
ok, lunchtime! word em up
  • Current Music
    Alice In Chains - Rooster

i commend thee unto dust..

i'm having a lot of trouble deciding what music to listen to. nothing seems to suit my mood. this seems to work for now.. this and nonpoint's "what a day" and some stones stuff (cuz they're all so similar). my phone is ringing but i don't want to answer it. i've found i'm avoiding people lately. i don't answer the phone, i don't go off away much on aim.. i feel like i'm afraid, trying to evade someone, but i don't exactly know who or why. stop scaring me, please, mysterious stranger. beautiful stranger. i like that song. i'm listening to "gimmie shelter" now. i'm just going straight thru all my stones songs, and skipping to the next one about a minute into each. i can't concentrate right now. i should be reading, i was planning to when i got back. i was planning to last nite too and didn't. actually i was planning to write. somehow, prose class always gets me full of great ideas to write about. probly from daydreaming cuz it's boring, but all the same.. but i got back and ended up watching tv in the lounge instead. and do you know why i sat there watching a dumb movie? cuz brette came in and she offered everyone blankets, so i had a blanket and i was comfy.
it stopped snowing, that's good.
i have so much i want to say but i can't get any of it to coalesce into actual intelligible phrases, it's just a lot of random feelings i get that can't quite focus. heron, to answer your question, that is why i talk so much in here,and my posts are so huge. i can't get right to the point, cuz it takes this long for me to find out what the point was to begin with. and sometimes i don't at all.
now i'm listening to roy orbison. and the phone rang for the 3rd time so i figured i may as well answer. it was gret, as i thought it might be. we're talking now..
[time passes]
k, i'm back now. so i talked to gret for bour a half hour. it was nice (even if half of it was her talkin about stuff that's been pissing her off), but even in that short time, there were pauses where we'd both be looking for something to say.. sigh, who knows.... and then i went to dinner w/ some dormpersons. me o my, do i live with some odd people.. felix's random phrase to say for no reason: "your balls are showing!" yep.
oh!!!! i was informed today that, on durham point rd, there is a BUFFALO FARM. THEY HAVE LIKE 300 BUFFALO! now assuming i'm not a huge idiot and they were making it up, that rules the world. so i hafta go check this out Real Soon Now.
after myth today, i saw "glass menagerie" with nastassia (and she informed me she's never seen "blair witch project" [gasp!] so we're watching that tonite, around 9ish i think). twas cool. that's such a good play/movie, albeit rather depressing. i can see myself in it in a lot of parts, which is part of why i like it alot. then, coming back to my dorm, i randomly meet nick, who talks about building houses, then shows me a sculpture he made. it's neat.. i think it was iron, some sort of metal. there's a leaf growing out of this kind of rusty triangular plane going off this bumpy thingy. he says it means nothing, but it is quite nifty, all the same.
o, and when i got back to my room, my friend sheena (not the manch one) had IMed me. i haven't talked to her in ages, that's so cool. i should give her a call soemtime..
anyway, with that giant pause in the middle of this, i lost my train of thought from earlier, so that's why it ends up useless. but yeah. o, and i seem to have solved my music difficulties from earlier. word.
  • Current Music
    Neil Diamond - Sweet Caroline