October 31st, 2001


sha la la

well, i'm feelin mostly better today. turns out all i had to do was throw up 600 times and i'd be fine, as i discovered around 2am when i spent awhile in hte bathroom. yum. so now i just have a vague headache and my throat is full of poison goo.
unsettling things to do: take 3 motrin, then about a half hour later cough one of them back up. that was kinda unexpected. not throw it up, mind you, cough it up. o yeah, and when i was originally taking the motrin, while swallowing the 2nd one i got this reeeeeally bad sharp stabbing pain in my right nostril. i don't know what the hell that was about but it sucked.
if anyone knows what this song is and wants to tell me, i'd be grateful. i'm fairly sure it's one of those "let's put famous bands in the mp3 name so people will find our song online" kinda things, but i like it a lot and haven't been able to find who actually did it.

ps: new emotions at www.emotioneric.com ! yay!

I propose a toast to my self control
You see it crawling helpless on the floor
Someday there'll be a cure for pain
That's the day I throw my drugs away
When they find a cure for pain

--morphine, cure for pain

ooh, a nutbar: www.almartinraw.com

i'm at the goa fortress now, in crystalis. almost done! i think next i'm gonna do dragon warrior. ah retro..

yay, lj is back online! now i can finally post this, from a million years ago (ok, this afternoon)
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    pictury(tool, deftones, incubus) - 3#some kind of fear
zombie penguin

epic filmmaking

jacob's ladder was much slower and weirder and much less horror-movie-ish than i'd remembered it being. the room was split between me and paul enjoying it muchly, brette and [i forget who else was in the room] being very confused (to brette's defense, she came in late), and some blond kid whose name i forget who didn't say what he thought either way. that hellhospital scene is still fuckall scary tho, that has to rank as one of the alltime freakier scenes of any movie. and since when i rented it (i had a helluva time renting it, no one has the damn movie. i went ot the video update in the mub, htey didnt have it, i went to the 'durham movie stop', they didnt have it, i had to drive to the giant video update in lee to get it. on the plus side, they were having a 2 movies for a buck thing which apparently they do every tuesday, and i got 'dead alive' which we watched half of before the lorax adn it friggin RULES. o my hardcore insanity. it's evil dead 2 on tons of speed. the funniest part - to me anyway - is that when there isn't horrible things going on it looks like one of those annoying foreign artsy films that people claim are brilliant even tho theyre stupid. it's just filmed that way, which makes it even weirder. and it has a NINJA PRIEST who proclaims that "it's time to kick ass for god!" and proceeds to do just that. beautiful. and bear in mind we're only halfway thru, from what i understand it only gets better from here. and the intro looks like it's from a different movie entirely. strange.
oh, one final point: the director/writer of this lovely film went on to direct "the frighteners" and is slated to direct all 3 lord of the rings movies. HA!
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    gravity kills - guilty

dan procrastinates

so i'm currently in the process of (avoiding) writing that story for fiction that i wouldve been up all last nite writing if i hadnt gotten sick and died. the hardest part of this is coming up with a story i can write which she won't hate. so i have to go thru a lot of weird ideas before i find a workable one. i think my best so far is of some guy drowning in his massive porn collection. yay! it occurs to me this is vaguely like that crazy dude i read about once - or maybe saw in a movie or something, i forget - who covered every inch of his home with lil pics he'd clipped from porn mags. he had a mobile contraption of pics attached to a hat so he could look at em while walkin around, got caught in a light fixture, and died. my favorite part of the story is the detail that when the cops came in after people complained about hte smell, all the pics covering every surface completely threw off their depth perception and they had trouble navigating thru the place. oh yeah, and he even had pics glued inside hte toilet bowl.
anyway, as i was saying, i had that idea of the guy obsessed with porn. it's one of those ideas i instantly like mainly because it's not something one generally hands in for class, but if i could pull it off well enough she could hardly complain (much like in my world lit class in 12th grade when we had to write a paper on what books we'd take with us if we lived alone on a desert island, and one of mine was a playboy compilation. i forget exactly what i said there, but it was something to the effect of "even hermits have lonely nights"). the others were "weaveworld" (clive barker), "jurassic park" and.. um.. somethign else. i forget. [goes to check] ah, "dave barry talks back" and "stranger in a strange land". i'd probably alter that list if i had to do it again, but i don't want to invest the thought into it right now). sadly, i wasnt able to do that much with the idea. it became a crippled bitter voyeur story, and promptly died. such is inspiration.
now i'm starting one with a guy buying an acoustic guitar a few years after someone dies in a pit at a concert from when he was in a band. he stopped playing after that happened from guilt. it seems interesting so far, we'll see. if i dont hate it, i'll put it in verbalkint.. hey, i havent updated there in a long time! i should do that..
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    Method Man - Bring the Pain (chemical brothers mix)

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this is just a damn cute song. you should all listen to it and giggle. "fo' shizzle my nizzle" indeed. (if anyone knows what in hell that means, please tell me). and "To try and to fail, the two things I hate" is my new motto. it's very homer, no?

Ladies and gentlemen, put our hands together for the astonishing...
(girls singing)
H to the izz-O...V to the izz-A...

Welcome ladies and gentlemen to the 8th wonder of the world
The flow o' the century...oh it's timeless...HOVE!
Thanks for comin' out tonight
You coulda been anywhere in the world, but you're here with me
I appreciate that...uuunnnh...

H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
Fo' shizzle my nizzle used to dribble down in VA
Was herbin' em in the home of the Terrapins
Got it dirt cheap for them
Plus if they was short wit' cheese I would work wit' them
Boy and we...got rid of that dirt for them
Wasn't born hustlers I was burpin' em
H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
Fo' sheezy my neezy keep my arms so greezy
Can't leave rap alone the game needs me
Haters want me clapped and chromed it ain't easy
Cops wanna knock me, D.A. wanna box me in
But somehow, I beat them charges like Rocky
H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
Not guilty, he who does not feel me is not real to me
Therefore he doesn't exist
So poof...vamoose son of a bitch

H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
Fo' shizzle my nizzle used to dribble down in VA
H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
That's the anthem get'cha damn hands up
H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
Not guilty ya'll got-ta feel me
H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
That's the anthem get'cha damn hands UP!

Holla at me...
I do this for my culture
To let 'em know what a nigga look like...when a nigga in a roaster
Show 'em how to move in a room full 'o vultures
Industry shady it need to be taken over
Label owners hate me I'm raisin' the status quo up
I'm overchargin' niggaz for what they did to the Cold Crush
Pay us like you owe us for all the years that you hold us
We can talk, but money talks so talk mo' bucks


Hove is back, life stories told through rap
Niggaz actin' like I sold you crack
Like I told you sell drugs...no...
Hove did that so hopefully you won't have to go through that
I was raised in the pro-jects, roaches and rats
Smokers out back, sellin' they mama's sofa
Lookouts on the corner, focused on the ave
Ladies in the window, focused on the kinfolk
Me under a lamp post, why I got my hand closed?
Cracks in my palm, watchin' the long arm o' the law
So you know I seen it all before
I seen hoop dreams deflate like a true fiend's weight
To try and to fail, the two things I hate
Succeed in this rap game, the two things is great
H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A
What else can I say about dude, I gets bizzay


(girls singing)
H to the izz-O, V to the izz-A... (4x to fade out)
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    Jay-Z - H To The Izzo

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i highly suggest browsing this site if you like stuff that's funny. specifically, the shows on adult swim. most of it is standard blahblah info (tho there's fun history for some of hte shows[1]), but i love the section on the promos. i don't know why, but i find it very amusing.

[1] i'd wondered why some of these shows looked so weird (esp spaceghost) but i figured they just had their funky style, like south park or monty python. turns out theyre recycling the animations from the old shows! that is a beautiful concept.
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alien chest burst

deth 2 fiziks

hey, ya know what sucks..... i have a physics test thursday. now, not only is this test scheduled right during aegis like always, but aegis this week is the sit around all night bickering about what gets in the magazine meeting. I WANT MY INPUT. fnarr. and not only that.... thursday at 7 (same time as the test, natch), KITH, DREXEL, AND LAZARDOS (and some other bands) PLAY IN THE STRAFFORD ROOM FOR 3 BUCKS!! i wanna gooooooooo. hopefully the opening bands play til i finish the test so i can go rawk out. cuz, ya know, i didnt get enough of that sunday or anything.
i stillh ave to write about the show sunday! and about friday night! and about bringing laur to the airport! and about our trip to nb! and probly lots of other stuff! dammit i'm so far behind on my liiiiife
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i have no business being awake at this hour. especially as i'm NOT EVEN WORKING ON MY STUPID HOMEWORK

i could just hand it in next week, i suppose. i'm not in the everyone-reads-it group this time, after all. she'll probably do some evil-and-yet-archly-polite-and-literate bitching at me for not dropping it off at her office or whatever. eh. i emailed her that i woudlnt be there, she never answered, i dont care. tho i seem to remember her saying she doesnt check her email much.

the problem is, of course, if i dont do it tonite, i'll put it off til monday night and probably end up doing hte same thing. someone please give me their motivation, i seem to have lost mine. sumnabitch.

and i need to catch up on reading for linguistics and bible, and need to contact my partners for the linguistics project cuz we have to rewrite our proposal. and need to do my weekly physics homework tomorrow. and learn the whole section tomorrow for the test thursday. and do my lab report for thursday. and i bet there was even more fiction homework to do, i hadnt even checked cuz of the story.

i let myself get so behind in everything, then stress out because i suddenly have masses of thigns i need to do in like 2 minutes and i go insane. then i somehow get it all done or fudge it sufficiently, and we begin anew. i need to either care more or care less, i think either way would solve hte major problem of me going periodically insane. caring more would probably work better overall tho, what with not giving up on life and such.
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it appears i have chosen the screw it approach. i'm going to bed and will (i hope) write hte story some time this week. i'd say tomorrow but thats not gonna happen. fencing, which i really cant afford to skip cuz i've missed the last like 3 practices, then physics. yay. maybe in the afternoon i could? whatever. we'll see.
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why am i posting so much tonight? i have no idea. it's easier than doing real things.

i take that approach to a lot of life. that bothers me.

/me is intensely frustrated right now, and going to bed
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    Jungle Brothers - Early Morning

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remember, everyone: the novel writing begins tomorrow!

o shit, i have linguistics in 15 minutes, and i havent done my homework yet. or gotten food. or put clothes on. [fails at life]
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