February 5th, 2002


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so kind of the spammers to send me real estate information for CHINA. cuz i live there and all

riots are funny. thanks polyesterday for the linky, i tried finding something about that last night and couldnt

jeez winamp has been all about playing john denver lately. i've had that song on there for months and heard it like twice, and i swear it gets played like 3 times a day now

hey, i just made a group on audiogalaxy: rocktastic! you should all join and we can send each other funky stuff and things

reading boring stuff forever is suck. i want to go to bed. make whitman say less, please

i don't spose someone knows what that 'pap' is in my current music?
  • Current Music
    Depeche Mode pap - Now this is fun

never sleep

o god.... i just had sleep paralysis.. according to this site, 6% of people have had it once.. i've had it like 4 times[2]. o fuck is it scary.
so iv'e been having really vivid weird dreams all night (which i promptly forgot when this happened of course.. all i remember is the one right before where i was fleeing people who wanted to carve me up for a sandwich, jumped off a cliff, died, was haunting my house in some sort of groundhog day state, and having a really cool time cuz the afterlife rules and i was hanging out with ghosts of my friends and random hot girls) when i suddenly am woken up by someone slipping into the bed behind me. theyre pressed against me with a hand on my side.. i'm too scared to move and my eyes are still closed. i'm terrified and adrenaline starts pumping and my body is tingling from it. i hope maybe i'm still dreaming but i manage to open my eyes - with a lot of effort - and i can see i'm in my room so i must be awake[1]. now i'm hoping maybe someone is playing a creepy fucking joke. i can hear this guy whispering in my ear but i'm so freaked out and he's so quiet i can't quite make it all out. something about aliens and my home and anal probe and "...people who resist. you won't resist, will you?" and that last question especially sounds so sinister and threatening. by now i know it's not a joke, this isnt anyone i know. my body is tingling even more and i know it's not from adrenaline but whatever he's doing. it's especially bad where his hand is on my side, it feels like it's burning, i don' know what to do, i feel like he's waiting for me to answer his question but i don't know hwat to say and i'm panicking...
then i wake up for real. i'm jumpy as all hell and too freaked out to get out of bed for a half hour, i'm scared to roll over and shut off the alarm which is set to go off in like 5 minutes.. and i can still feel the tingling on my side where he was touching me
and now, like 45 minutes later, i'm still scared to death

[1] upon really waking up i realized there were a few differences: the bed was at normal bed height and not raised up, and there was a weird poster on the wall. but that all seemed normal in the dream of course
[2] i dont remember the last 2 so well, i know one of them i didnt actually hallucinate anything so much as get this intense spideysense idea that something vague and horrible was nearby and coming to get me. i dont remember the other at all, but i think it was another thing behind me - i've never actually seen anyone during this.
the first time was the strangest because it was partially at will.. i dont know if i was dreaming or awake at the time, but i just discovered somehow one night that i could will myself into this weird dreamstate where i was totally aware i was dreaming. it wasnt a lucid dream tho cuz i coudlnt effect anything. the dream would be me lying in this coffin-shaped-but-larger iron box with chains on the walls and flickery lighting and i could hear dripping water and it was right out of a bad horror movie set. there was no one else there and i wasnt scared to be there, tho i maybe should have been. but hte thing is i'd be there in teh dream, then wake up to being totally paralyzed and having trouble breathing.. and after a few seconds i'd manage to move my leg just a tiny bit - with intense pain - and then i'd be totally fine. and i did this like 3 times that night just cuz i was so fascinated that i was able to induce that in myself and i had no idea what was going on - not that i do now. and i've never been able to do it since then


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so off the top of my head, here's my snapoutofit playlist:

vast - free
king missile - cheesecake truck
jay z - izzo (hova)
guess who - undun
billy joel - for the longest time

all happy boppy songs


* and now while playing thru, i switched guess who for 6gig "hit the ground", and i'll probly skip billy joel
i'm sure this is very interesting for all of you
  • Current Music
    King Missile - Cheesecake Truck

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bouncing souls, no one can beat us
we drink beer and wear adidas

on a similar note (alphabetically speaking), i need to get a boston cd. any suggestions of which? i have various mp3s of them which are nifty, my favorites are "higher power" and "peace of mind" but i dont really know much about them. and my live version of "more than a feeling", the mp3 when i got it was for some terrifying reason attributed to godsmack (i thought it was a cover when i was dling it and was quite excited to hear it). but no, turns out someone was just insane
  • Current Music
    Bouncing Souls - OLE!

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this song is great

the new weezer song, however, i'm not sure what to make of it. it's not bad, but it's not so good either.. kinda like a lot of what i heard off the green album.. a shame, really

i wish i had time for a nap before class, i'm so tired.

so i was talkin to someone yesterday and he reminded me of something i'd read awhile ago and forgotten about... on average, people need 1 hour of sleep for every 2 hours they're awake. but the thing is, once you're into the deep sleep thang, the first 15 minutes is worth 2 hours, then it starts petering out and soon enough it avgs out at 1 for 1 like you'd think. but the point is, hypothetically you could sleep 15 minutes every 2 hours and be perfectly wide awake all the time, for a total of like 4 hrs sleep a day.. give it a shot, ya never know..

biiiiig bottom, biiiiig bottom
talk about mudflaps, my girl's got em


class time. off goes dan. la.

and now i'm back, only 8 1/2 hours later. i just saw "do the right thing".. damn that's a strange movie. it goes from being like 'in living color' making fun of the 80s to being ultra serious without ever feeling like it jumped. i dunno man..
  • Current Music
    soundgarden big bottom(spinal tap cover super rare)