January 13th, 2003


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i was at the salivation army saturday and got a seagreen shirt, some asimov books, and 2 cds. one of them was what's playing now, which i was astounded to find cuz theyre one of those bands i half suspected dint really exist. it had no price tag on it so i asked the dude how much it was. he looks at it, and says "hell, its yours". whee! all i'd heard of them before was the song BBQ, which bourque sent me long ago. sadly, it does not nearly live up to that song, but it's still fun

you know, i think the problem with my cd-r drive may be that it's overheating.

so i'm reading brave new world. one of the central ideas of the book is that emotional growth comes from the prolonging and thwarting of desire. if you instantly get everythng you want, you will be an emotional infant. a life of hardship and deprivation will make you mature and sensitive. i don't like this idea-- why should negative emotions be more maturative than positive? if he was saying you need to experience the full range, that would make more sense, but that doesn't seem to be what he's getting at. it seems to come from the same idea that says sad art is deeper than happy art.

fun fact: the latin root of sullen apparently means by oneself alone.

last night i was looking at dvd drives online. first off, it was far more trouble than i expected to find good reviews of the stupid things. it's the internet, what better do you all have to do with your time than write hardware reviews?! get to work, dammit. in the meantime, i'm looking at cnet.com. now, some questions arise: why is a dvd drive more expensive than a dvd/cd-rw drive? why are all the reviews not written in the same format to make my life easier? why are all the user comments clearly insane*?

*my favorite two:
1) from jumbo: "I've never used this unit but i think i would hate it" (good point. indiscriminate hate is always the right choice)
2) from Erick T. Knapp Sr.: "Price is outrazous. For a internal drive. The drive should be in the 300 dolar range at most" (this for a drive priced around 150)
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i had 2 dreams last night that bothered me.
the first started with me being in a haunted house but that part isn't important. later i went out to a river and was killing everything living in the river with some sort of vulcan-neck-pinch-style pressure point maneuver (i was thinking of what i was doing as abortion, but obviously it was all on stuff that had already been born). i don't remember why i was killing everything, but i had a good reason at the time. a crab attacked me and dragged me underwater and it was clawing and biting and all that. i couldnt hurt it because of its shell. finally i dragged myself out of the river with the crab having attached itself to my right arm just below the shoulder. it wasn't a normal crab, looking more like a shoe-shaped crustacien than anything else, but crab i thought it at the time. i found myself back at the haunted house and hid in a closet to avoid the ghosts. the crab was still on my arm, and it was sucking my blood vociferously. unbelievable pain, and it woudln't go away, and i couldn't get it off. it just got worse and worse. a phone rang, so i answered it (closetphone?) and it was my doctor wondering why i had not made our apointment for earlier in the day. i explained things and was told that the crab would come off easily under hot water. at this point i had lost so much blood to it that i was near passing out. i knew i would not be able to get myself to the bathroom for hot water. suddenly the crab, as if sensing that i was thinking of getting rid of it, jumped at my face. i jerked myself awake and lay there wide-eyed, checking my arm every so often to make sure nothing was attached. the muscle ached slightly.
eventually i got back to sleep, and now found myself in what i identified as jack's house despite it being a rather gothic mansion. i thought i was alone. at some point lauri appeared and we were hanging out, but she was steadily getting younger over the course of the dream. at one point, she was like 5 and playing with some toy cars or something. we were sitting on a stairwell. J came up and said everyone else was down in the basement having a party. he went back down and i was back upstairs with lauri. then she disapeared too and i couldnt figure out how to get to the basement. and that very loosely summarizes the last 6 or so years of my life, friend-wise
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Kitty52683 (11:18:53 PM): someday you'll be a milf

that has its good points and its bad points.
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