April 9th, 2003

aghast

kthx

OH MY FUCK I HAVE SPIDERS LIVING IN MY GODDAM RADIATOR I HATE THIS ROOM SO MUCH I HATE INSECTS AND RADIATORS AND ALL LIVING THINGS THAT COME DOWN ON THEIR WEBS FROM THE CEILING AND LAND RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME WHAT THE FUCK YOU STUPID BUGS GO AWAY I HATE YOU DIE
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    Radiohead - Creep (Live Acoustic )
alien chest burst

(no subject)

i just sprayed half the can of fucking bugspray in the radiator. i hope it all catches fire while i'm sleeping. seroiusly like 10 bugs scampered out while i was spraying their HUGE SPIDER MANSION. it even has free heat, the lucky bastards.
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    Radiohead - Glastonbury Festavil - - Just (Glastonbury)
plant

hang out with yourself

well you can start the "i told you so"s now, then. i was warned, but i didnt care, once again i thought i would be able to fix things and deal with things that are far beyond me. i am so fucking upset right now, adn i cant say why, which is just stupid. but it woudlnt matter if i could, i dont even know why in any way that makes sense. but i just hate everything
and i know in a couple days this will all be talked out and irrelevent like everything else i think, which almost makes it worse. this matters, even if i dont know how to say why. i never laughed when you were upset no matter what i thought of your reasons

what a stupid fucking birthday. i always have shitty birthdays. no, thats not true, they usually start out okay. but they end shitty. kinda like every other day. but at least i waited around all fucking night trying to find someone to go out and have fun with on my first night of official adulthood and coudlnt find a damn soul and the people who'd said they would didnt turn up til the middle of the damn night, and at least my room is infested AGAIN, and at least several people are steadily losing their luster which is really depressing if not unexpected.

Ya didn't do what I say today
24 hours of no wishing well
Now 365 days I'm in hell, oh well
Happy Birthday to me
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    vandals - happy birthday to me
stainboy

a bullet in your head

gotta be more punk
and forget about writing love songs


oh for the record, the subject of my last post was 2nd person to me, about my day. *shrug* so everyone else may continue to hang out with others, including me if you like, which apparently a lot of people dont.

today nastassia gave me an awesome brownie cake thing (before cutting it into brownie size chunks, is there any different between a pan of brownie and a cake?) for my birthday, because she is hooray, and i went to visit larissa in the comp lab for like an hour.

i feel a lot calmer than last night, but still unhappy.
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    Punky Brüster - - - Fake Punk
victory!

john

i do appreciate the sentiment, thank you for that, but don't be an ass. whatever's going on, i still care about her a lot, and i don't like watching hte two of you sniping in my journal. both of you, play nice.
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    Rage Against the Machine - - - JFK (live)