May 16th, 2008

stranded

storytime, followed shortly thereafter by brutal honesty time

SCENE 1: so i met this girl tina in like march. i was at seaweeds (bar) with some people, and she was a friend of a friend of a friend. we were kinda making eyes at each other, and started talking, and blah blah i get her number and an invite to a party at her place a few days later. party is fun, she says we should hang out etc.
SCENE 2: since the party she hasn't answered any voicemails/texts. after like.. a month? or thereabouts, i wind up at a party of the people who live right below her, and she's there and says something about how she's been so busy and something else i couldn't catch because, ya know, loud party. after this she still isn't answering the phone. okay, hell with it, i stop calling.
SCENE 3: today! i had a delivery to her work. i say hi, how've you been, etc. she gives me a look, and says "you're... dan?" shortly thereafter she goes to answer the phone and i leave.

so anyway, that pissed me off. then being pissed wore off and i just felt sad. not because of her specifically - i mean, i met her a whole 3 times, so whatever. but it's rare that someone seems actually interested in me, let alone someone i'm interested in back. and shit like this happens to me all the time and i don't understand why. not as much being totally forgotten, but i feel like every few months somebody will decide to just cut me off for no apparent reason. they blow me off, don't return calls, basically avoid and ignore me until i give up, feeling dejected and confused. now if someone feels they have to do this, then so be it, but dammit at least tell me why! what am i doing? if i knew, i would probably stop.
and i'll note, half the time it's someone i'm just friends with. so i'm not just scaring off potential dates.

so seriously, brutal honesty time. am i doing something horrible that i'm not aware of? please let me know.
  • Current Music
    Days of the New - Days of the New II - 04 - Weapon & the Wound
finger

GIVE ME MONEY IN EXCHANGE FOR SERVICES RENDERED

for shiz, i am so sick of flakey useless people. i want my freaking job already!
i had my med training, and i went up to johnston twice to meet my hypothetical-future supervisor (whose name is rudy. i've never known a rudy before, outside of ska songs) and the dudes i would be supporting, and rudy has been supposed to call me for job training/work schedule for like a week and a half. i've called and left voicemails, all for naught. on monday i'm supposed to go meet with some irene person who hopefully will actually let me work for them. apparently the guy she wants me to work with needs someone to take him to the mall and the bar every friday.

"905" by the who has the same synth intro as a stabbing westward song. i've been listening to the who discography lately, and it turns out the who blows. i love some of their songs, mostly the hits and stuff from tommy, but the rest is just awful junk. oh well. i've also been listening to the currently playing song like 5 times a day all week. it's so peppy!
  • Current Music
    The Wombats - The Wombats - 03 - Let's Dance To Joy Division