March 7th, 2002
my new mission in life is to use the word "bombdiggity" as often as possible. it doesn't stop being funny!
do i speak really quietly or something? or am i not assertive enough? dicks? in a group of people, if me and someone else are trying to talk at the same time, either we talk over each other and what i say is ignored, or hte other person goes 1st and i dont get a chance to follow up after. it's so frustrating
on a that plus lots of other things note, i hate feeling second rate. i'd much rather be hated than tolerated, ambiguity just lets my mind swallow itself, as it likes to do, and then i'll end up spending 3 hours staring at the walls depressing myself.
which brings up steph leblanc. not that i think she dislikes me, but i saw her today and she was talkin about similar from teh other pov. i'd forgotten how fun she is. i almost never see her, she's always hiding somewhere when i pop in at the stephroom, and even when kidding she always comes off seriousish online. but yeah, whee! we started the lamest foodfight ever
my heart says looooooove the world! o god, this song is too cute. i fuckin love this guy, he's awesome (thank you jamie for linkying me to his mp3 site, or telling me to go there, or whatever the hell you did. i know this was your fault somehow). i hope his voice isnt truly this dopey tho. i don't know why he randomly has this happy love song and then everything else is whacked out (i love "bitten to death by rats"). he's like atom and his package with more guitar and less whiny jewish guy voice (note: this is not a criticism of atom, who pulls off whiny jewish guy very well, just a comment. they are both for the yay)
 about some guy who she didnt particularly mind but didnt really like either. and he was making a pest of himself, being around a lot mroe than she wanted, and she told him to go away. my 1st thought is "aw thats mean!", but i realize that's exactly what people SHOULD do.
so if anyone secretly hates me, say so or unfriend me or kill the president or something. ya know.
 as i'm often convinced people do
np: James Kochalka Superstar - President Kochalka
and she told him to go away. my 1st thought is "aw thats mean!", but i realize that's exactly what people SHOULD do.
Yes and no on that one. Michiel and every other Dutchie in the world tells you exactly what they think about things. I'm still crushed by some of the things he says because he's so. . so blunt!
Then I found out he thought Americans were kind of devious: borderline liars. "Why don't you people just come and tell what's on your mind?" He didn't think people were telling the truth because they were trying to be nice and sugarcoating things.
It's pretty much a cultural thing (unless you're completely pissed off, then who cares what they think we just tell someone to fuck off) I have the good sense never to ask stuff like "Does this shirt make me look funny?" because I better be ready for The Truth.
It's really hard for me to say things I feel are critical, but he's grateful when I come right out and tell him unvarnished Truth. On the other hand he's learning to tell the difference between cruelty and honest opinion.
Long response now ended. Good morning, Dan :)
i suppose i can't really say with certainty, but in my hypothetical world i would rather have the bluntness. sugarcoating has caused far too much badness in my life, both to and from me. i'd rather be rid of it
 as i'm often convinced people do
I like you :)
aw thank you =) i like you too
|Date:||March 7th, 2002 08:45 am (UTC)|| |
if i could, i would make all the news channels report on the assassination of the president and the defriendation of dan by john because it would be far too amusing.. :)
wit my group of friends, i sometimes have that problem.. being too easily ignored. riggs does it sometimes, and i want to punch him in the head. i make up for it by becoming more rowdy around them.. stiil, it gets me sometimes.
hee, that reminds me of the secret service skit from the state
yeah, i can see how riggs could be like that
|Date:||March 8th, 2002 01:08 am (UTC)|| |
indeed. he's better when alone. i spose it's hard to concentrate with all the peeps around and the drugs in him.
do i speak really quietly or something? or am i not assertive enough? dicks? in a group of people, if me and someone else are trying to talk at the same time, either we talk over each other and what i say is ignored, or hte other person goes 1st and i dont get a chance to follow up after. it's so frustrating This happens to me ALL the time so I have taken up the habit of saying "SHH! I'm TALKING!" and "I'm not FINISHED yet!" when someone else talks while I'm talking (but unless its my mom it takes a little while before I do that)
|Date:||March 7th, 2002 08:28 pm (UTC)|| |
that happens to me too, other people's personalities just over come mine. its frustrating because you feel kinda seperated from everyone, not part of shit. i usually just walk away then because i get bored. but i know what you mean, when something i say just gets shot down, i either ignore it and just get up and leave becuase i am obviously not communicating with the peopel.