March 31st, 2002
|01:40 am - switch is open|
i don't understand this. i have tihs painful aversion to anything school now, i don't know why. not that i've ever especailly enjoyed homework, but i didnt avoid reading things i liked because they were for class. i'm 5 resopnses behind in american lit now, i've got the reading done for the 1st one as of like a week ago and i still havent written it. 1 page about anything, on something i already read. it'd take like 10 minutes. but i don't do it.
more than that, i'm sick of school. stupid teachers and stupid assignments and i don't know what i'm going to do with any of this, wiht myself, i just feel like i'm wasting my time and my parents' money. but what else would i do with myself, work at cumbys forever?
or maybe this is just stupid. i think that's it.
i think i need a reason to care.
np: police - can't stand losing you
I know how you feel... I've been sick of school for about two semesters now... but being only scant months away from two diplomas, I can't stop.
Have you looked at other programs, maybe one will spark your interest... maybe some of your courses that you have already taken can count against other courses...
there's plenty that sparks my interest in the hypothetical "that'd be cool to know more about" sense, but nothing i actually care about. the only things i get any sort of enjoyment from are math and english. i hate math if i have to do more than a little at a time when i'm in the mood. english is too much writing about shit i don't care about. if i could have a class in "read good books and write cool shit" i might be happy. but i probably wouldn't even enjoy that, at this point. i don't want to do anything, i just want to spend my life reading livejournal and being bored.
could you maybe swing a semester off? Time to cool off and sort your head out? I wanted to do that several times, but I could never afford to stop classes (damn rotating semesters).
If time off isn't possible, how about switching to a General Arts and Sciences course? Sort of let you continue learning/going to school... not too strenous, and you might find something that sparks your interest like math or english and keeps it...
it's too late in this semester to bother, and then i'm off for summer
we've got crazy gen ed requirements, so iv'e taken various classes of different things. most of it sucks
Ahhh... I see.
Our semesters go 1st semester, 2nd semester, summer off, 3rd semester, co-op, 4th semester, co-op, 5thsemester, co-op, 6th semester. Its all screwed up and hard to catch up on courses.
Co-operative education... like internship, but only for 3 months, and it counts as a credit in school...
|Date:||March 31st, 2002 12:46 am (UTC)|| |
this is basically my life right now. cept my job pays a lil better, i spose. but i can't do that forever. problem is, will a diploma get me anywhere anyway? my mom has one, and it's not doing her much good either..
what DOES your mom do? i can't remember
there are plenty of people with diplomas living in dumpsters, and people like bill gates who got rich straight outta junior high or whatever the hell he did. but i think in general it's a good idea to go for the higher ed
i think you have to remember a job is going to be a job, so take something that will be fufilling, maybe not neccessarily 100% fun but something you can look back on and say "i did something useful" thats the way i think of it at least.
meh, nuts to all of it. i'll just be a stay-at-home dad adn take care of the kids while my wife goes and makes us rich