April 1st, 2002
so i'm not feeling as shitty as last night, but i'm not any happier about being here. last week was fucked for any number of reasons, so i guess this is my first "real" week back from break. i did a little bit of the reposne to the stuff i read already. so i'm 1/whateverth done all my homework. victorian lit is cancelled tomorrow and history all week, so that's cool. yeah for no afternoon classes. i don't know if i'm going to go back to fencing yet. like everything else in the world, i want to but not enough to actually do it. i'm just getting mroe and more pissed at myself for everything
oh yeah, and 2 papers due in a week. yeah.
and i knew i should have written it down this morning, but i didn't wanna bother. i had what very well may be the most involved and longest-seeming dream i've ever had, but i forget it now. lemme see if i can piece it togehte from the little bits i still have.... it started where i was in this big weird complex, i didn't own it, but it was mine in some fashion. so me and a buncha people were exploring it, we all somehow kinda knew where each other were. it was almost metroid/cube-y, with big rooms and tunnels, and big weird portal doorways. anyway, i somehow got ahold of a map, from where i was to something else. it's labelled as - i think - "piece of heaven". actually i think that's wrong, something about heaven tho. i think i got the map out of someone dying somehow. anyway, me and someone or other is making the trip there, and going to weird places and talking to peopel adn evading people adn doing random things that i don't remember, and eventually get there adn open up the gate to heaven or whatever it was, and it's this big blue glowing field straight out of star trek. at this point, my dream doubles back on itself as they do sometimes, and it was earlier in the dream again. not at the beginning, but it was at some point in the journey. i was aware that i'd already been thru this and i was repeating myself, but this didn't strike me as odd. as i said, this happens in my dreams kinda often. it's not exactly repeating, cuz thigns are slightly different and i seem able to choose what i'm doing (not lucidly, mind you, but in context of the dream) still. it's weird. but in this repeat, we end up at the house where the heaven thing is, but we have to con our way in. it's a huge place, and i get the sense i was doing 2 things at once here. in one path i was exploring in some attic schoolhouse hidden passage thing and going up stairways and into rooms and i get the feel of that stairway at the end of jacob's ladder. the other part was that we were pretending to be applyign to work there, like servants, to get inside. i got to be a cook and had to make some sort of beef meal. whoever i was travellign with was the cow. that image definitely trumps anything else, it was this person morphed into a farside standing-up cow, with a face looking like something off conan's "if they mated" bit. anyway, we continued on, back in human form, and were skulking about, and something happened where it was a video game and i loaded a saved game and ended up in some final fantasy village and was all 8bit and then back at the house and somewhere else and i don't know what the hell happened. and then i was aware that my alarm would go off soon and the dream got hazy, then i woke up, then my alarm went off.
np: Rammstein - Stripped (Depeche Mode Cover)
|Date:||April 1st, 2002 12:51 am (UTC)|| |
thats quite a weird dream you had there
that's not the half of it
|Date:||April 1st, 2002 01:56 am (UTC)|| |
i barely ever remember much more than a few images and feelings from my dreams.
|Date:||April 1st, 2002 01:13 pm (UTC)|| |
sounds like one of those"choose your own adventure" books..... i always liked the space vampire one.
hahahaha! o god, i miss those. i liked the really involved ones, where you had to keep track of your life and inventory and stuff, and it was like playing d&d only stupider. "the warlock of firetop mountain" is the balls