April 29th, 2002
i feel so stressed. soooo stressed. i dont even know why really. i mean, i have a 3 pg paper due tomorrow. tomorrow! i can write 3 pgs in an hour if need be (and i think i did, last time). then i have a buncha huge stuff, but that's not due for 2 weeks. granted, i won't do any of that until the night before, and then i'll kill myself, but the point is it's not due for 2 weeks and i feel like i just drank battery acid. what the fuck.
i know people with problems. they have reasons to be stressed. i dont have shit. i have inconvenient luxuries.
i am absolutely terrified. i'm going to fuck everything up. or already have. or something.
i want to break down. i want to throw a big kickign screaming hysterical crying and be sent home to recuperate fit. and it would feel soooo good, because i am just a big ball of repressed silent sitting here calm and i'm going to post this and read more of abelard and heloise so i can write my paper and i'll go to class and laugh at my friends' bad jokes and come back here and seeth and i can't even punch the walls because the walls here are made of fucking paper and i'd go right thru so i'll just sit here and read people's journals and maybe go online and my computer will crash forty fucking times and it's only a matter of time until it stops working altogether and then i'm just screwed. without my computer i'd just watch tv all day and that's even more lonely. even when i'm with people i'm lonely
shoot me in the head
state: help me
np: Stone Temple Pilots - Sour Girl (Rare, live acoustic)
|Date:||April 29th, 2002 09:01 am (UTC)|| |
DON'T BE SADDISH, HAVE A RADISH.
OH YEAH, THANKS FOR THE 72(!) ORAL SEX DONATIONS.....BUT I DON'T THINK YOU'RE READY FOR THIS JELLY
but i don't like radishes..
i am ready for jelly in all its various and sundry forms, with or without peanut butter. why did you go over tehre anyway tho? now reading about your life is inconvenient, come back to livejournal
|Date:||April 29th, 2002 10:49 am (UTC)|| |
Are you sure? Come a little closer and I will check..
|Date:||April 29th, 2002 10:50 am (UTC)|| |
Oh, this is what is wrong. Yeah, same thing happened to me this year. I think it's (partially, anyway) burnout. It absolutely killed me.
|Date:||April 29th, 2002 11:17 am (UTC)|| |
Hugs to you! It sucks when you feel like you're suffocating and can't pin a reason on it - but we're almost out so hang in there kid! And if it gets really bad I have some babies in my closet that you can throw at people or make pie out of or whatever will make you feel better. Yeah. *KENDRA*
college doesnt make the student smarter. it makes the normal average everyday person,an irregular and every other year person. I hope you are doing better now. just know. that summer is coming along soon and its a well need break from the tyranny of education