so what would be wrong with it? go hit up some frat sluts? why not? fuck morality, there's nothign to wait for. it's cake after a hershey bar. or some other bullshit metaphor. EVERYTHING IS RATIONALIZED LATER. IT DOESNT MATTER. do what makes sense, adn you only know that by what feels like it makes sense. the world has fallen out of orbit; flee to china.
but anyway, this is neither here nor there. dara.. it's that one smile. i think that was the only time. she just smiled at me a second longer than felt sociable. like she meant it. oh god i want her to mean it. is that really it? that cant be it. fuck. so yeah, that vs a lot of nonresponse and nonversation and walking away while we're talking and she's a fucking great catch. she said so. i believe her. maybe she'd be happy if i asked. she's not likely to scream and run away. the worst that happens is nothing. always. the best is
how much do i trust the private security? why not keep it on my comp? because this is easier. THIS is my journal. and screw you, i want it complete. so F this S in the A. another uncompleted fantasy. they all are. EVERY GIRL I FUCKING KNOW ITS ABSURD. i want everyone. and it never happens. it drives me insane. i never do anything. gee, iw onder if thats related. gee. gee whiz. forgodssake
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