October 19th, 2002
|02:57 am - these are days.|
ok so ive been sticking things in here for a few days now, rather than actually post anything. so here ya go
i'm so behind in my reading for class. i should catch up. eventually.
picture party with julie. we wandered around taking 'artsy' photos of various silly things. broken chairs are artistic, because artistic people are depressed and like damaged things. we had fun and played on the broken statues, and in the abandoned greenhouse.
went moxie shopping with heron. oh moxie. diet moxie, no less. this was for hall wars, to make people drink it because it's horrible. we're nice people. tonght was the gallon challenge, which turned out to be the gallon of water and 2 liters of gingerale and moxie challenge. i had to drink the water. got 3/4s or so in the 15ish minutes allotted to us, and then i felt like i was gonna pass out and stopped. yum. i've peed so much tonight, i think i'm rid of most of it now. we did alright, but now my hall is down to 2nd place. we'll catch up! victory is imminent. at least 5 people threw up (some off the outside balcony), it was good clean fun.
OH RAIN. it rained so good today. i was walkin to fencing and it was just POURING and wind blowing and craziness. i was laughing so much, people musta thought i was insane. sometimes rain makes me fairly ecstatic. but yeah, walking to fencing, i happened to be walking against the wind the whole way there. which means when i got there, the whole front of me was pure soaked, and the back was pretty much dry. also, there was a perfect line of wet/dry near the top of my pants where the jacket was covering. it was so weirdlooking.
i just took a nap for an hour or so. i had an abortive lucid dream. i was dreaming normally... something about having dinner with friends at some restaurant set up to look like a castle. then auger shows up, looking DRUUUUNK and a bit upset too, but it was hard to tell because he looked so DRUUUUNK. so i'm talking to him, then we're all talking, and sitting down to eat. now, randomly, during this, i am aware that i am dreaming but think nothing of it. the mind is stubborn and doesnt like to not take its own senses' words for it. but anyway, evenutlaly i realize "hey i'm dreaming! i can do what i want now!" and start flying away. but things only partially worked. i could fly, but instead of getting no gravity, gravity would just shift directions. like i'd get stuck on a wall instead of the floor. and at one point i was trying to make someone walk in thru the front door, and every time i tried, the door would open and there'd be light streaming through, and a wooden barrel would roll into the room. this happened like 6 times before i gave up and flew outside, where there was a waterpark (logically). and everyone seemed only slightly aware of my presence. they seemed to hear me when i talked, but didnt respond, and if i tried to touch someone i would pass through them, but there was resistance. it was very strange, but i'm thrilled all the same. i haven't had one of those in yearsss
stuff happened. mostly good. nothign worth typing out. i think the most significant thing that happened today is i ate swordfish, to give you some idea
why is there a christian fencer's association? this is a sport devoted to violently stabbing people. they may as well be christian axe murderers
NEWS: that's just bizarre
The CFA will hold a beginners fencing camp in Calcutta, India December 1st-11th. Indian youth will be given an opportunity to experience an activity unique to their culture and enviroment. We pray that this will give them hope and encouragement for their futures as this great Olympic sport and God's love is shared with them.
so.. i tell ie to keep the last 20 days of my history, and yet there's never anything in there. not even teh history of the current day. what gives? it even got rid of its list of pages i've been to (so it can give links the "you already saw this" color)
np: tori amos and maynard - - - mohammad my friend (live)
|Date:||October 19th, 2002 08:01 am (UTC)|| |
OH RAIN. it rained so good today
That was *so* sexual from my point of view. And I liked it. :D
|Date:||October 20th, 2002 10:35 am (UTC)|| |
and every time i tried, the door would open and there'd be light streaming through, and a wooden barrel would roll into the room
Hee. Sounds fun.
I had a nice string of lucid dreams a few months ago, but I haven't even really remembered a dream for a while now.
it was frustrating! i had just figured out at this point that i was lucid dreaming.. i float up out of my chair to this alcove thing above the door, and i'm tryin to get people to come in, and keep getting barrels. i didnt know what i was doing wrong
it's a very odd state, too, isnt it? you can think and control the world, but it's not like you suddenly become godly in charge of everything. at least i don't. i was still the me in my dream, one character in this big world i was dreaming up. except i was the one character who could make things happen for no reason (even if i wasnt very good at it). it's like i suddenly got superpowers but was still dreaming
|Date:||October 22nd, 2002 04:15 am (UTC)|| |
it's not like you suddenly become godly in charge of everything
I'd never really thought about that, but yeah, I don't think I've ever been able to control it completely. One of the last ones I had I took off and flew around for a bit, but when I landed I was in a totally different scene. I can normally control myself and a few other things, but the rest of the dream carries on by itself.
yeah. thats not quite what i meant tho.. what i found odd abotu it is that you realize taht youre dreaming and in charge of everything and it's all in your head, it seems like there should be a monumental shift suddenly. like you become god and all knowing. you SHOULD be all knowing, it's all your brain making stuff up. but i'm still just the me in the dream, one character in this huge world. even when i'm aware that i'm subconsciously making it all up, it doesnt expand my awareness of it
i was telling some people about that the other day- there were a few people who said they ALWAYS know when theyre dreaming, but they had never tried exerting control over it. so i told them all they should try it; i have to check in and see how that's going for them
|Date:||October 30th, 2002 08:20 am (UTC)|| |
Actually, that is pretty much what i was saying, I guess I was too tired to get it out right. :)
As for always knowing when you're dreaming - I've had a couple dreams that I thought were real until the middle of the next day when I asked someone about something that happened in it. The look you get in response to the question is priceless, though. hehe
i had a dream once that was me getting up and going to school and having a normal shitty school day (except taht i was black, but that didnt affect anything in the dream). oh boy was i pissed when i woke up and had to go to school for real
|Date:||November 4th, 2002 11:46 pm (UTC)|| |
I finally remembered a dream the other night, and it was pretty fucked up. I had gotten out of bed to go to the bathroom, and while I was sitting on the toilet, I heard Tracy moaning, almost screaming. When I returned to the bedroom, she had given birth to a baby girl. My first reaction was "Oh no! He doesn't have a penis!" I asked how she managed to have a baby so quickly, and she complained that I was in the bathroom too long (7 minutes by her testimony). I set the baby on the floor and it ran off (quick learner, I guess). It took a few minutes after waking up to figure out it wasn't real. The fact that she's not pregnant and definitely not nine months along helped me figure that out.