March 24th, 2003
i propose a toast
to my self control
you see it crawling helpless on the floor
want to try something interesting? i was doing this in the library today. try looking at people how someone in love with them woudl see them. imagine you've spent hours tracing the curve of her throat, or the furrow of his brow, how intimate every movement is. everyone is so beautiful
on a similar note, i remember a period last year when i found eyes intensely creepy. little balls of gelled water stuck in the middle of your head that quite clearly do not belong there. that was strange
in other news, jess just walked by my room. on the way past, she says "that's a good idea, dan". after a momen of confusion, i yell after her "what is?" but i dont think she heard me. so i'm glad she approves of me reading the survey in amy's journal whilst scratching my back
state: sedated. i think there was something in my soup
np: Morphine - Cure For Pain - 9 - Cure For Pain
but for them, i only see it by imagining feelings that arent there..
i see what you mean, but i think you're wrong. it doesn't make it any less special. i'm just saying that everyone has the potential to be beautiful (and i like to think everyone always has someone who does think so, but that's fluff) as viewed from a certain mindset, which i can try to see from. that's not at all the same as actually seeing someone to be beautiful and feeling that and knowing that, intrinsically, where it just is.
i agree, i wasn't saying otherwise.
we've been doing a lot of talking across each other lately
everything you say is so fatalist-like.
it's just all sad and like final. i dunno how to explain