update: i have been informed that they meant i deserve it more, not need it more.
oh and mike was all impressed that i like the gwenmars. he loves them and didn't know anyone else who did who he hadn't gotten into them. and later he mentioned thou, adn i just got their cd recently and it's good, and he was all impressed again. so yeah, mike has good taste. stuff like that happens sometimes, where i like obscure things and impress people, and it makes me feel cool. does this make me a snob?
i think i forgot how to comfort people. i used to be good at it. back in the day when me and all my good friends were depressed all the time and we spent a lot of time comforting each other, i seemed to be able to accomplish somethiing. not actually solve anything neccesarily, but they'd feel a little better at least. now, someone is sad and comes to me and i don't know what to say