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April 11th, 2007

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06:06 pm - molly
hey folks. so my grandma is dying. my aunt called; she had a big stroke and is unconscious with an IV and doesn't have long. i am going up tomorrow. she is my last grandparent.

i've spent so much time being depressed that i don't know what to do when i am actually SAD.
np: The Black Heart Procession and Solbakken - In the Fishtank, Volume 11 - Things Go on With Mistakes

(16 shots upside the head | en garde!)


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Date:April 11th, 2007 10:21 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry, Dan.
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Date:April 11th, 2007 10:30 pm (UTC)
I'm very sorry, dan.
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Date:April 11th, 2007 11:08 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, Dan.
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Date:April 12th, 2007 02:10 am (UTC)
i'm sorry.

and that last sentence? yeah.
Date:April 12th, 2007 02:19 am (UTC)
Well, shit. I'm so sorry, Dannard. I heart you and will keep your family in my thoughts. :/
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Date:April 12th, 2007 05:27 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry Dan. ::Hugs::
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Date:April 12th, 2007 06:21 am (UTC)
Oh no! ::hugs::

My unsolicited advice: suit up, show up, be helpful to your family, do the dishes, locate the tissue boxes whenever you walk into a room.

Hug, cry, laugh, celebrate, tell stories, listen to stories, hold on to what you need, say goodbye to the rest.

Feel your body. Switch between cold air and warm air, run, spin in circles or roll down a hill, inhale and exhale as far as you can and then push it a little further, scrub your face with the stuff that kind of hurts, find a soft blanket and wrap it around you like would a baby who feels lost in the universe.

Remember to sleep and eat. If you start to feel out of control, check first to see if you've slept and eaten. If you have, then you're supposed to feel out of control right now, so just go with it like you would a rollercoaster ride, knowing it will end, and knowing the memories of this stuff are what make everything else matter.
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Date:April 12th, 2007 07:29 pm (UTC)
This is some of the best advice I've ever seen. I hope you pay attention to it.

Good luck, give your Grandmom a kiss if you can.
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Date:April 16th, 2007 03:43 am (UTC)
i gave her a few
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Date:April 16th, 2007 03:50 am (UTC)
my family (and myself) are not very demonstrative about our emotions. all of this will probably go on inside us while we stand around being somber and calm

everything you write sounds like poeming.
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Date:April 12th, 2007 06:32 am (UTC)
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Date:April 12th, 2007 11:13 am (UTC)
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Date:April 12th, 2007 06:34 pm (UTC)
:( well, if you're back by saturday night desiree is getting people together to go bowling in plymouth. disco bowling that is.

my grandfather is my last grandparent, so i'm in your boat and i honestly wouldn't know what to do with myself either.
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Date:April 13th, 2007 04:14 am (UTC)
My Grandpa too.
Minus the stroke.
Plus a pace maker.
I tear up when I think about it.

I hope everything will be ok for you.
I'll give you a big hug next time I see you.
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Date:April 16th, 2007 03:40 am (UTC)
things are provisionally better. she's got a little time left, i guess

yay hug! i hope things are ok for you too
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Date:April 16th, 2007 08:15 pm (UTC)
I'm ok.

Hope to see you soon

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