but of course, things happen beyond our control, and either they were meant to happen or they were not. if not, if chance, well what's the difference? if all the free will in the world doesn't save you from being hit by a bus, then it doesn't matter if it was fated or it just happened. you're dead and you're dead, just because. and you could never know the difference. a bird poops on your head, how can you tell if it was meant to poop on your head or it just happened to? whether something is chance or fate would be totally blind from our perspective. it's a meaningless distinction.
so in summary, whether i allow fate or not, life is meaningless. maybe i'll be a nihilist this week.