i'm feeling much better today, but still a little ominously heavy in the guts.
science fact: i almost never respond to emails. i don't know why. i'll read one and think "i should answer that and say blah blah!" and then i scroll down and never look at it again. or i just won't read it to begin with. i'm a jerk. on the same tip, i have giant piles everywhere of "to do" things that i should be doing.
relatedly, and somewhat explanatively:
* "sometimes i get so overwhelmed with life that i end up doing nothing because it's just so, well, overwhelming. i'm in that boat now and it's sink or swim to shore and i'm not sure that either is an option i want right now. so i sit back, rock the boat, hope it doesn't tip, hope i can bail the water out in time, but mostly just wait until something amazing or awful happens." [opposite day]
* "we spend our lives on the imaginary verge of an enormous change." [bobby burgess]
again relatedly, the co-ops are at a crossroads of sorts. we had a financial crisis (gee, just like ummm everything else everywhere) and a dude from nasco came out to assist us. his diagnosis mainly is that we are a "culture of neglect" and there's nothing to be done for us if we can't repair that ourselves. fucked if i know how this'll work, but let's see what we can do.
thanxgiving ruled. my little cousins are SO CUUUTE i can't handle it. i ate until i died. my family is ridiculous. jonathan was saying how he babysat for rachel (itty cousin) and had to change her diaper and what a travail that was. i mentioned how that morning at work i had changed a 50 yr old man's diaper, and everyone was impressed. or possibly some other thing.